I had a lot to do this week to get ready for our upcoming visitors, as well as my upcoming international adventures. I had to do laundry, recreate my stolen journals, clean the house, put together some projects for the orphanage, pay bills, submit our renters' insurance forms, grocery shop, etc.
I told myself I would be productive.
I wasn't.
I've spent almost the entire week in my pajamas. I've dinked around the house, doing a little here and a little there, getting distracted by articles online, taking long naps...
Sigh.
When I am busy, I am unhappy and wish I had more time to relax. When I am not busy, I am unhappy and wish I would be more productive. It's a vicious cycle.
I know you are all thinking that I am being too hard on myself. But I'm really not. It is appalling the amount of stuff that I have not gotten done this week. Really, it's appalling. Just ask Ryan; he's been studying for the Boards from home, so he witnessed the depressing, disorganized affair. (He didn't say anything about it, but I know he noticed.)
And here I am, online again, avoiding my to-do-list.
I'm cranky, and it's my own fault.
I hear you sis! i deal with Cal all day and it's exhausting---especially when he's cranky!---and everytime he goes down for a nap I know I should get down to work, but I rarely do. I'd much rather surf the net, watch tv, or just SLEEP myself. Oh well! Just buckle down next week! xo
ReplyDeleteI have those days. And weeks. And months. But I do think the downtime makes my uptime more productive, not just because I've given myself a little break (or a big one), but because I've run out of time and I HAVE to get stuff done. So I'm more efficient about it. Or maybe that's just me rationalizing.
ReplyDeleteAmen Sister...
ReplyDeleteI hear ya. Well said. But at least your not alone. I do it too! :)
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